A lot of tragedies have stricken when I was away. I haven’t been active for a while and I owe you an explanation. Except battling to survive IB1 at school and get decent grades, I also had to deal with my own personal issues which held me back from being the best form of me. These small setbacks have made me less productive and at some point, I lost hope and felt weak and vulnerable.
This is a message to all of you out there who are going through hard times, either because you lost a loved one or because you lost yourself. You might be lost and you might feel lonely, but YOU ARE NOT ALONE.
It’s Summer and the sun is out, meaning that it’s time for a change. It’s time to treat yourself, to make things better and to end up feeling better.
In order to get there, you might need to cry and let it all out. You might need a day off and you might need to spend half an hour before going to bed playing the piano and drinking tea just to calm down and be able to sleep. But you’ll get there if you want to you will.
I’ll tell you a little story, from a very emotional and sensitive teenager who happens to have an imperfect life, like all of us.
Last night I cried myself to sleep and this morning I woke up with a swollen eye and an aching collarbone. I looked at myself in the mirror and saw someone who didn’t quite look like me. I smiled at myself and my smile looked sad. I tried to take a selfie but my eyes had this spark that was slowly dying, running out of energy.
Then I got up and I brought my dog in my room and hugged her so tight, trying to get all the love I could. I spend the day in bed, watching series, sending emails and putting things into perspective.
What I’m trying to get across with this story is that we all have our down days. We all feel insecure about something and we all have the right to be ‘weak’ sometimes. Accepting this side of us and willing to work on it is what matters, what makes us strong instead.
Ariana sang ‘Somewhere over the rainbow’ in the Love Manchester Concert. Being able to look at the rainbow after the rain is what makes us who we are. Because we all have different views and just being able to imagine a life somewhere over the rainbow is good enough.
You know what being strong means? It means that you have the strength to be you. To be this whole special person, to strive to differ without trying too much because being yourself makes you different. I learned a thing or two about life from my biology lessons this year. One of them is that we all have this special set of genes called a genome. Our genome is totally different to everyone else’s and that’s what makes us different. We are all different. The thing is by trying fit in a segment of society we try to be different which makes us all the same. That’s why we should be ourselves.
Being yourself is the strongest act you can do. Because being yourself will make you different but you are not alone… We are all different. Embrace yourself, your weird personality, your caged soul which wants to be set free. And make sure when you do it you do it with love and compassion so that others can see that it’s not that bad after all… It’s not that bad being yourself and standing up for what you should believe in the most. Yourself.
Stay strong, look at the rainbow, imagine your life somewhere over that rainbow. Take your time, cry and then stand up at your feet and look at the world out there and all of the lovely things you’d be missing if you don’t give life another try.
I am currently working on myself and getting there so that I can soon be in a better position to enjoy all those little things life has to offer. Little things that add up to a life worth living.
Cheers to the Teenage Years,
The Quiet Girl.